2016

2016 started out with Michayla's 15th Birthday. I'm so thankful for the invention of Facetime, it was like my sister and family were right there celebrating with us.

Mick and I went on what was to us a vacation of a lifetime. Mick's work earned the opportunity through Consolidated Construction Supply to go to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico in Jan. We spent 6 days experiencing many firsts, making wonderful memories and new friends.

February we went to Vegas with Michayla's club softball team, Idaho Crossfire. The girls played rather well being their first big tournament against teams from other states that they hadn't been up against. We had a great time exploring that crazy city and my suspicions of not being a big city girl, rang true! Ha! (by the way, that's her on the left of the top picture, creeping towards the batter. She caught that ball in the air and the girls had a triple play that game. Very proud of this girl)

Michayla had also made her high school Varsity softball team.

My sister and the girls were able to be here for Easter and to celebrate Abigail's Birthday. A picture of all the cousins together added to that memorable day. 

May 2nd Mick & I celebrated 18 years of marriage. 

May 28, 2016

13 years in the making. Watching Clayton walk across that stage and receive his High School diploma was a huge accomplishment and we were all so very proud of him that day!!

I won't recount the last 7 months. I know that anyone who is reading this is very much aware of the heartache that we have been going through. I continually relive May 29th , over and over. We  unfortunately experienced a majority of our families firsts almost instantly; birthdays then the holidays. 

I've heard many say that they can't wait for 2016 to be over, for me, I wish it wouldn't end. 

 I don't want a new year to begin. I don't want another min, hour, day or month to go by. It is not fair and this is not right and I do not want to pretend like it will be when a new year starts. 

2017 will not change, not during month one, two or six. 

My life, our lives, will always have a hole in it. That hole will never get smaller, fill in, diminish or go away. I know it will change, but get better, probably not for a very long time.

This tragedy reminds me that our family is blessed to have one another; parents, sister, brothers, grandparents, nieces and nephews, aunts, uncles, cousins and friends who are our family as well. We are in this together, may not be experiencing it the same but we are here to help each other and that means a lot to me.

I will hold tight to all the fun times and the great memories we had with Clay. His sense of humor, independence, adventurous self and his love will always be what helps get me through these hard days and nights. 

Love you always Clayton Samuel Tully!!

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer.

From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint;

lead me to the rock that is higher than I for you have been my refuge,

a strong tower against the enemy.

Let me dwell in your tent forever!

Let me take refuge under the shelter of your wings!

Psalms 61:1-4